Wednesday, December 29, 2010

SoulMate


Over a year ago Brandon and I went to a Josh Turner concert in Gillette. We had 3rd row seats! It was awesome. Josh sang this song Soulmate...I bawled in it. I love the lyrics. I wanted to put them on my blog. I want my soulmate to know that I love him more than I can tell him. He is my better half and I am so thankful every day for his love.



Soulmate
Until the end of time
You're my soulmate
I'll love you till I get to heaven's gate
And if I go first sweetheart
I'll wait
'Cause I know I'll never find another
Soulmate

Your love
There's no telling where I'd be
Without your love
Stumbling in the dark
Would be pretty rough
When I get down you're the one
That lifts me up
I thank the Lord above
For your love

Chorus:
In this day and time
The right one is hard to find
Girl, that's why I'm holding on to you
Each and every night
When we turn out the light
There's no mistaking what we have is true

Soulmate
I hope that we grow old together
Soulmate
In the good and bad
Even through the heartache
We've got a special bond
That'll never break
'Cause darling you and I are
Soulmates

Repeat Chorus:

Solemate
Until the end of time
You're my soulmate
I'll love you till I get to
Heaven's gate
We've got a special bond
That'll never break
'Cause darling you and I are
Soulmates
Yeah, I know I'll never find another
Soulmate

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Christmas 2010

I had a WONDERFUL Christmas this year! My mom and dad drove up with their camper from New Mexico! It was the first Christmas with them in 7 years! It was so fun! We went shopping Christmas Eve, which was a mad house! We had mexican food that night! YUMMY! Then we had Brandon read us the Christmas Story in Luke. We sang a few songs. My kids were in bed by 800. They were asleep by 900! Once the dogs started barking outside, and Weylon sat strait up in bed, EYES WIDE OPEN, and yelled, "its Santa"! LOL Funny kid! Santa came and delivered by 930 and we were all asleep by 10! Good thing cause Savanna came running in our room at 400am screaming, "Santa came! Santa came! Get up! Get up!" We made her lay down for a little bit, but the excitement was too great. We were up and presents opened by 500! We had Brandon's parents over for lunch! It was all good food. Then we loaded up and went to see Yogi Bear at the theater in Gillette. It was fun! The kids all LOVED the movie! Came home from that, did baths and everyone passed out, including all us adults by 830! IT was a fabulous day! Mom and dad left today after church. I am so sad they are gone, but so extremely happy they came to visit! Now they are on their way to Ryan and Amber's house. And Wednesday they are headed to Chris and Em's then Tom and Gennies! It was great having them here! Especially since I usually only see them in the summer. I get to see them again in June so it won't be that bad, but after they leave, I get soo homesick! Good thing my kids keep me so busy! Well I hope you all had a great Christmas!





Pa was making a cheesy face! He was not ready for me to take the picture! HAHA gotta love the picture!


Nana and Pa again with Savanna, Weylon and OakLeigh! Smile!


This would have been a good picture, but I didn't realize Oaks had a mouth full of food showing! Oh well, thats my kids for ya!!

Here we have OakLeigh! You can't tell she LOVES Dora can you? She asked for Dora Sippy Cups, Dora dancing we did it doll, Doras Backpack, puppy pillow pet...And she wsa soooo excited! When she went to bed Christmas night, before she fell asleep, she asked me if Santa was coming back for more! She was POOPED out!








Now here we have Weylon. As you might have guessed, HE LOVES trucks and trailers! Santa brought him all the kinds he makes I think! He LOVES his camper the most he says. He got a silo that you can fill with rice, and a truck that you unload it into. Santa made the mistake of actually giving him a bag of rice. The bag is empty, but my vacuum bag and carpet will forever be full of rice! He screamed like a girl when he saw the camper! He loves the rodeo clowns and bulls too! He has been playing his little heart out!






Here is Savanna! She LOVES to do art. So Santa made her a desk and brought her a box of art supplies. She also loves to do make-up and hair. She made a sign for her door that says, "famus make-upist and hairist!" So she got a box full of play make-up. She asked for a snow-globe from Santa also. And a unicorn pillow-pet! She was excited!





Friday, December 17, 2010

It's A........

Ok, so I realize I previously stated that I was NOT going to tell anyone the sex of this baby....that lasted only a couple hours! So I was a nervous mess for this ultrasound today. I have had this horrible dang cold. Been taking cold medicine, and just not feeling that good...and haven't felt the baby moving around a whole lot lately. So I WAS FREAKING OUT! Went to the doctor today. Met Brandon there. And we waited FOREVER! The longest Dr. Cohn has ever kept me waiting. I could just feel my blood pressure rising. My heart beat was so rapid and my stomach was doing flips. I just wanted to get in and hear my little ones heartbeat so I could KNOW he/she was doing good. Finally after an hour, she got us in and sure enough, before you could hear the heartbeat, the little bugger was wiggling all over! My nurse knows that I am a mess this time around, and knows we lost our little Steven at this time of gestation. So she quickly found the heartbeat for me to hear. And sure enough, my tears started rolling. She kept trying to see what the sex was, and the little stinker kept flipping over or closing the legs really tight. And then, there it was, baby did the splits and here HE was. Yep, its a boy! Tears started falling again. Weylon says, "good thing! I need a brother to play cars with!" And of course daddy is all grins. He said there is too much estrogen flowing in our house for him and Weymore! I am just so very thankful that HE is healthy and strong. I feel even more blessed this time of year! So much for keeping secrets! I knew I would have to find out and of course end up telling EVERYONE. Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 3, 2010

Grandmother hood?!

Well I did it. I have apparently reached Grandmother hood...(If thats a word?) A WHOLE ENTIRE YEAR AGO, we were at a McDonalds. I had a doctor appointment in Rapid City and arrived 1 1/2 hours early. So I took Weylon and OakLeigh to McDonalds to play and waste time. Keep in mind I was a whole year younger then. OakLeigh was only like barely 1 years old. Weylon was only 3. Anyways, a woman told me that she liked to bring her grandkids to play too. I looked at her wierd. Didn't respond...Didn't quite know what to say. Then she asks how old my grandchildren were. OK LADY get ready to rumble you fruitcake. I was only 34 years old then. I didnt have ANY gray hairs at all. I was doing good with my eating. Started exercising good. Felt really good about the way I was feeling...then big mouth marge calls me a granny. I am going to be a great Granny someday, but come on, I don't want that label when my oldest was only 6 years old....well I got over it. Then today at wally world I had 5 kids with me. I was in a hurry. They were all screaming and being loud. Go to the first cashier I have ever seen there without a line. (I should have wasted my time in line with the 2 nice NORMAL ladies that work there....) anyways, she (blind and insane cashier) tells me that I have the cutest grandkids. AAAAGH Are you SERIOUSLY KIDDING ME LADY? I had had it anyways, because who else is stupid enough to take 5 children to walmart with them when they are in a hurry? All ranging from age 4,4,3,2,1....Grandmas are awesome, but they have done it all, and they are not insane enough to bring ALL THE GRANDKIDS to the store at once...so should have been this morons first hint that I was the MOTHER (well mother to 2 of them anyways). I honestly shouldnt let stupid comments bother me. But this one stung really bad. First of all, I am (basically) 5 months pregnant. I am SHOWING. I only have like 3 gray hairs. I dont feel like I am that wrinkley and stooped over YET. So apparently I looked like an OVERWEIGHT INSANE granny to this woman. And yes I let it get to me. Got the kids buckled and cried the whole way home. Sheesh, why do I let these kind of comments bother me? There is actually a kid I went to school with that is a grandparent right now. I AM getting old. I AM half of 70...which if you think of it that way, then I could technically be a grandmother...but it hurts cause when I hear grandma, I think of MY GRANDMOTHERS. Granny is 85 years old. Grandma is 94 years old. They have EARNED the right to be called a grandma. They deserve to be called Grandma. They are wonderful grandmothers. They have a wonderful legacy they have lived for us to all follow and learn from! I however, have a 7 year old, 4 year old, 2 year old and soon to be newborn. I don't appreciate being labeled a grandmother yet. So please, use some common sense from now on people. If you are brainless and clueless, then put that bandaid over that cut under your nose each and every morning so you don't risk the possibility of ruining someone's day!
On another note, there is only 3 weeks until Christmas! WOOHOO!!! So only 20 more days till mom and dad are here! Thats exciting news...we hopefully get to do our Christmas shopping really soon! The snow is falling today. I get to go on a date tonight with my sweet hubby. I can feel my little baby kicking and moving ALL DAY! We (may or may not) find out what the sex of this baby is in 2 weeks! We have almost all the puppies ready to go to their new homes. We all seem to be healthy! Life for the most part is great! Except for the random insane woman at walmart who brought me to grandmotherhood!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Tagged!

8 Things I am looking forward too:

1. My date with Brandon tomorrow night!!!! (We go on 2 a year basically...lol our anniversary and his Christmas work party.)

2. Christmas shopping! Wierd I know, but I LOVE the hustle and bustle of the holidays. I love getting gifts for my family and the excitement in the air!

3. The end of my babysitting today and tomorrow. I am really tired. I am looking forward to my weekend!

4. My parents getting here for Christmas! Its been 7 years since I spent ACTUAL Christmas eve and Christmas day with them! SOOOO EXCITED!

5. Finding out the sex of this baby! And delivering him/her HEALTHY!

6. Very strangely, my hospital stay in 4 more months! Crazy I know. I will be hurting from my C-section, and wishing then to be home, but I really like the thought of someone else waiting on me for a few days and all I will have to do is push a call button for drink, food, etc! :) And have the nurses take the baby for the night and bringing him/her TO ME when he/she is hungry! That sounds very relaxing right now!

7. Savanna and Weylon's school Christmas program! They are all dressing as penguins. Savanna has a speaking part. I am really excited to see how they do! Also stay tuned this month for a video of it! Thanks to my in-laws we got a new high tech video camera to film it!

8. Being skinny! (HAHA ya right...)

8 things I did yesterday:

1. Cleaned house
2. Bought Savanna a new coat then took the kids to Burger King play land to scream in there for a while!
3. Played with the puppies. They are so cute. If I could I would keep all 5 of them, but then again they are a lot of worry for me. I worry if they are warm, safe, getting enough food...
4. Cleaned house AGAIN.
5. Cooked french toast and cut them into star shapes (to entice the kids to eat dinner) then sprinkled powdered sugar and piled it with whip cream...healthy dinner I know. Don't worry. It still didn't entice Savanna to eat them. What kid do you know doesn't like french toast with sugar and cream on them?
6. Gave the kids a bubble bath.
7. Played solitaire on my phone.
8. Watched Judge Judy!

8 Things I wish I could do:

1. Twinkle my nose and look good for once.
2. Take my family to Disney World!
3. Seriously win the Publishers Clearing house. Or like walk into a store and go to pay and have alarms sound saying I was the 1 millionth customer, so I win a shopping spree for a MASS amount of money!
4. Pay off ALL our debt, including my stupid student loans.
5. Take a vacation with just me and Brandon and NOT worry about my kids back at home.
6. Take the kids on the Polar Express this December to meet Santa!
7. Have a CLEAN, ORGANIZED(thats the key word), SPOTLESS house for more than 10 seconds...
8. Have patience ALL the time.

8 Shows I watch:

1. Judge Judy
2. Apprentice
3. iCarly
4. Operation Repo
5. Full House
6. Real World/Road Rules Challange (I know I Know)
7. Big Brother (when its on I am soo hooked on that show)
8. Ice Road Truckers (the new one where they are on the big mountain! Love that one)

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Kids really do say the darndes things...

Brandon and I had a really good laugh about Weylon and all the funny things he thinks about in his 4 year old mind...First of all, like I stated in my facebook page, if you aren't from the country you may not understand, and will probably be offended by this. But if you grew up on a farm, ranch, or even just in the country you will completely understand this. Ok, so Krypto had puppies about a month ago. The kids saw about 3 of the 5 puppies born. Weylon was pretty amazed and also grossed out, where the puppies were born but also how they were cleaned up after. He just watched wide eyed through the whole process. Then would get real close to them and watch them nurse. Last week, I started feeding the pupps soft food. I came in one evening and Weylon asks, "where were you at mom?" I told him I was feeding the puppies. His eyes got really wide, and he says, "you mean you were nursing them?" I had to bite my tongue! I looked at him, he was dead serious. I said, "I was feeding them puppy food...thats gross Weylon!" He just looked at me and said, "oh good mom, that would have been weird!" I just walked away shaking my head. Well then last night he was watching me in the kitchen. Not saying a word, just watching. I could tell he was thinking really hard. I asked him what he was thinking about. He says, "Mom when you have your baby are you gonna lick it clean?" I looked at him a little wide eyed, "Gross Weylon. Why would I lick it clean?" He says, "mom, all the animals lick them clean. On my movie Great American Cowboy the cows lick them babies clean..." I told him humans don't lick there babies. He says, "well who's gonna clean it when its born?" Poor kid, learning so much but understanding so little! Still had a good talk and laugh about it!

Then there is OakLeigh. Oh my dear little OakLeigh. She is 2, will be 3 the end of January. She wanted to say her own prayers, so we folded our arms and I let her go. I didn't interfere or help at all. She thanked Heavenly Father for her day. Thanked Him for her family. Thanked him for her "YayYay" (Weylon). Then asked Him to please help Santa bring her a pillow pet for Christmas. HAHA I told her she can't pray for that. She said, "yes I can. I can pray for whatever I want!" As you can see she is my stubborn little stinker who has a mind of her own.

Then there is Savanna. She really thinks highly of her abilities sometimes. Which I love that she has such confidence in herself. I would much rather she had confidence and knew of her talents than not know. We went to her parent teacher conference. The teacher showed us a paper she had all the kids fill out. One of the questions asked the student to write down a few things they need to work on in school. Savanna had wrote down, "learn to write smaller". Her teacher told us that Savanna did really good on the questionare until she got to that part. She raised her hand and told her teacher, "I can't think of ONE single thing that I need to work on or improve on. I think I am pretty smart." HAHA So her teacher said, "she really is a great student. I really had a hard time thinking of anything for her to work on too!" Which is a great thing to hear, especially from a teacher! But she finally told Savanna, she could work on writing a little bit smaller. So now Savanna practices that at home. She says she doesn't want to have things she's not good at! I have to laugh and beam with motherly pride all at once for her!

Anyways those are the silly things that I can think of right now. I guess you could say I am thankful I don't have to lick my young when they are born, that OakLeigh knows you can pray for ANYTHING, and that Savanna is a smart cookie!

Friday, November 19, 2010

Thanksgiving!






Our primary had a Thanksgiving Dinner and activity for all the kids the other day! These are cute pics of the pilgrim hats they made!
Also after viewing these pics, YES I scrubbed my windows! WOW! Didn't realize how dirty they were, now they are so clean its brighter in here! LOL

Christmas Cookies!

Well I realize we haven't had Thanksgiving yet. But like I mentioned from my last post, that Christmas music gives my home a better spirit of love, giving, service, happiness, ect...And we NEED that in our home today! Weylon and Oaks woke up at 445 this morning and have been on the fight ever since. Because of this, I have been grumpy and lost my patience way too much today. So I got on the net and found my very most favorite song, which always makes us all smile and here you go. Christmas Cookies by George Strait! I love this song! I am able to breath now. Not ready to bang my head on the rubber padded walls quite yet! (Trust me I was really close to admitting myself to the insane asylum earlier today...and right now its only 8:53 am)...NOT GOOD! So enjoy our song. It will make you smile!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

4 months!

Well I made it to 4 months! Every time I go to the doctor my heart beats faster than it should, I am sick to my stomach, and I feel a little dizzy until I hear that sweet sound of my baby's heart beat! This was the month that I lost my little Steven last year. It was the last part of my 4th month. Every time I feel this little one kick and move, my heart soars! It is such a sweet wonderful feeling to know that this little one is growing and moving! We can find out next month what the sex is of this baby. I dont know that we are gonna find out or just not tell anyone? I think its always exciting to not know....I on the other hand WILL find out. I have to be prepared. HAHA but that doesn't mean I have to tell anyone! :)

On a new note I talked Brandon into getting a tree the day after Thanksgiving and putting it up that day! WOOHOOO! I am so excited this year! My parents are coming and I haven't had Christmas with them for like 7 years so it will be really special for us. And yes our house has been rocking to the Christmas tunes for a while now. All those who really know me, know that I can't wait till after Thanksgiving for that part. I love Thanksgiving, but I love Christmas music more! It wins every time! Usually right after Halloween. There is something magical about the music. It brings out a spirit in my home that I can't resist! A spirit of MORE love, MORE understanding, MORE forgiveness, MORE smiles, MORE service, MORE happiness, MORE of what our home needs! So who wouldn't want to invite that in right?!

Granny had her 80th birthday on November 14th! YAY Happy Birthday Granny! You know you are such a wonderful example to all of us! You are someone who has lived through so MANY hard trials in life and still you have this wonderful unwavering faith! I absolutely admire my Granny. I was remembering to some of things Granny has taught me throughout my 35 years of life. SO MUCH! One thing I do remember and often refer to this memory, was this: every summer we got to spend a couple weeks in Ramah with her and Popo. It was awesome cause I had so many cousins my age. Me, Daylene, Natalie, Chesley, Mindy...anyways, one day, I dont know who it was, but a word was said that shouldn't have been said. Granny sat us girls down and very lovingly told us about how a lady should talk. And if we wanted to be looked upon as a true "lady" then we should always watch the words that come out of our mouths. We should always act with poise and try to act like a lady at all times. And if we allowed the bad words to flow from our mouths then we have lost one thing that is so very important! I am sure that was said in better words than that, but I was only like 10 or 11 and thats how I remember it. I actually had the same conversation with Savanna the other day. She laughed at me, cause she isn't a "lady" yet, just a 7 year old girl. HAHA Anyways, I also remember laying in bed in between Granny and Popo listening to them snore, but before that began we would have prayers, and they would both tell the greatest stories! Or sing songs. I loved it, cause Popo would sing the wrong words to make Granny mad and she would get mad too. And he would laugh. I love you Granny. Thank you for the wonderful legacy you have lived for us all to follow!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Thankful Month!

Ok so everyone is doing it. I know I know, I am such a follower. But what better time, especially the month of NOVEMBER to write out all I am thankful for! Plus I really think I need the reminder more than anyone so I can actually stop and realize all that I do have. I know I take so much for granted and don't remember to thank my Heavenly Father.

First of all, today we were driving home from the park and there was a huge herd of range maggots running. OakLeigh says, "look at all the anemope mom!" She was so excited. I thought, #1, how dang cute that they are "anamope" and #2, I am really so glad to live out in the country where I can actually see them running free.

Even though its November 5th, we had the most beautiful weather today! It was 70 degrees! Is that unheard of in Wyoming or what? I could live with 70's forever. Its perfect for me. We played outside all day and then at the park as well. I am thankful for actual fall temperatures and beautiful days that I get to enjoy at the park with my kiddos!

I am so very thankful to be expecting again. It was the scariest moment for me at first when I read the positive sign on the test. I bawled my eyes out. Then got down on my knees and prayed with all my heart that this baby would be ok and that I would be ok through out the pregnancy. And also thanked my Father in Heaven for the chance to be a mother again to another baby. I am out of my first trimester, now 14 weeks! I have been blessed to be able to feel this little bugger kicking already! And thankfully Dr. Cohn (who by the way I LOVE) is very empathetic towards my fears of losing this baby and so she sees me every 2 to 3 weeks and does an ultrasound. So far so good! And strangely after week 14, (this week) a lot of my morning sickness has passed! That is unheard of for me! WOOHOO!

I am so thankful for Brandon. He works hard for us. His job is NOT his dream job by any means, but he does what he has to do to provide for his family. I am thankful for all his hard work for us. He is a good father. A good husband and a perfect best friend. I am so thankful that the Gospel of Jesus Christ is so important to him. I am so thankful that he takes his priesthood responsibilities seriously. I am so thankful that he listens to me whine and moan about EVERYTHING. I am so thankful that he LOVES ME for me. Doesn't want (or push) me to change, even though I know there is so much I could change and work on. He loves me for me. I couldn't ask for a better eternal partner.

I am so thankful for my sweet children. I can't imagine life without any of them. I don't even know how I used to function without them. Even though, at times, YES they drive me nutty, I wouldn't change being a momma to them for ANYTHING. I am thankful that they are so patient with me. I am sure I am not the best mom. I am sure I have a lot to work on. But they love me as their mother. They are my world. I am so blessed.

I am a nut for this I am sure. But we have 2 dogs, 4 cats and 5 chickens. And I am so grateful for all of them. I love the dogs because they look at you with this unwavering trust and love. Krypto had 5 puppies and I love sneaking outside to the garage and cuddling them and watching them. It really soothes me and makes me realize how awesome God's plan is. I love the dang cats, even though the first touch of them makes me sneeze and my eyes water and my throat itch. They catch the mice and keep our home (mostly) mouse free. WHICH I HATE MICE. I would move from every place possible if there was a mouse. Thank you kitties for making it ok here! And of course the chickens. Those dang stinky birds. Thank you for my 5 eggs every morning! We would be able to survive on eggs if we had too!

I am so thankful that I have 7 weeks before Christmas! My most favorite time of the year! I love the excitement it brings! I love the way the whole month of December has this awe and magic about it! I love telling my kids Santa Claus or Elf or Reindeer stories at night! I love getting them excited to give! I love teaching them about the birth of Jesus Christ. I love how this time of year makes me feel so young! I love sneaking gifts in and wrapping them! I love shopping! I love the snow and hot chocolate and all the fattening baking you get to do! I love the earlier dark nights! (? I know) I love the sound of the crunch of snow. I love hearing the kids laugh and play in the snow! I love Christmas eve! I love the Christmas music! And YES, I started listening to it TODAY! HAHA I am thankful for this time of year!

I am thankful for my family! I am thankful for the parents I have and the love and support they always give! I am so thankful for my 4 wonderful brothers. For their wives and all the neices of nephews I have! I am thankful for Granny and Grandma! For all my aunts and uncles and cousins!

I am thankful for Judge Judy! Seriously if I couldn't record her show and watch that at night after the kids went to bed, I would probably be in the nut house! I am thankful for all the bigger nuts out there on that show! Makes me realize we are pretty darn normal and blessed! I don't know why I like her, but she's blunt, to the point and strict! I am also thankful for Lifetime tv. Love watching lifetime movies! I have probably seen every one ever made, but I LOVE THEM! Oh which brings me back to Christmas season, LOVE LOVE LOVE all the Christmas movies!

I am thankful for music! Thankful for books! Thankful for Twilight series! Thankful that Emily and I can cheese out together over how awesome the movies are! I am thankful for the weekends when I let the kids sleep in the living room and watch movies! I am thankful for Dr. Pepper. (Even though I am really trying to get it out of my life...) I am thankful for cheese and crackers and pepperoni! (Pregnancy thing)

I am so very thankful for my Country! Something definately changed in me after 9/11. A light was turned on in my head and I realized from then on how very blessed we are to live in AMERICA! Even with all the political crap going on, we are so very blessed. I get to worship as I WISH. My kids can play outside without the worries of a bomb going off. We can shop at wherever we want SAFELY! We keep our money we make for ourselves. We have soldiers who fight and sacrafice so very much for ME! I am so thankful for my Country and my FREEDOM.

My list will go on, but for now its past dinner time and I haven't even started yet!

I am

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Happy Halloween!



Savanna and Aaron at her school party!





Weylon at his Halloween party!



Savanna the Bride, Weylon the Chicken, and OakLeigh the Puppy!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Happy Halloween!

There will be more pics to come! (Like of my handy dandy candle/marshmallow holder! And of course the costumes!~






The kids had soo much fun carving pumpkins this year. I just wish it wasn't so messy and make me cranky, but all in all there were NO TEARS and everyone had a blast. And of course when we get to the finale and want to light the candles inside.....we have no candles....so being me I do what I do best...IMPROVISE! I found a box of birthday candles and a bag of marshmallows, smooshed 2 mallows together, stuck a candle down inside one and lit them in each pumpkin! It worked and the kids were happy! And I didnt even burn anything down! So here are a few pics!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Prayers

Ok folks, here it is, I know that prayers work. I have been the recipient of much needed fasting and prayers. I would like to ask anyone who reads this, (I am sure it is family and close friends anyways) to please keep Chris in your prayers. He has been suffering from blood clots in his head for over a month now and he is miserable. It hurts to see him in such pain. I know he is getting very discouraged. I know Emily wishes for her happy, smiling joking husband back. I know the kids are really worried about their dad too. I know as his sister, I pray constantly for him. I know my parents are worried for him as my other brothers and family members are too.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

They joy of 4 year olds!

So lately in the mornings, well actually its pretty sporatic when this occurs, but it was in the morning today that this happened. I get the dreaded morning sickness. If anyone knows how this feels, then you realize that not a whole lot gets accomplished till either you puke your guts out or it passes. For me it usually means lots of puking. Well Weylon and Curtis are 4 years old. They usually can be outside with no problems. They usually play with the dirt pile and trucks, or the wagon. But for some odd reason today they went into the garage and found Brandon's paint from the chicken coop and SOMEHOW GOT IT OPEN. They found paintbrushes, and rollers and painted a little bit of EVERYTHING in the garage. You name it, there is a roll or stroke of white paint on it. Dogs, cats, chickens, boxes, cement, tools, walls, dirt...well you get the idea. And of course today Curtis (he's one of the little ones I babysit) had on a new pair of wranglers, shirt, and coat. And of course the coat is black and the paint is WHITE. So once the kids were paint free, I scrubbed coats for 30 minutes and then animals...well as much as a cat would let you and I don't touch the chickens. (I have a weird gene in my head that can't stand feathers. They are disgusting and hold a lot of dirt and dust and it gags me to touch the chickens.) Anyways, needless to say, my morning has not gone too well and I feel bad now because the boys sat on the couch in there underwear (clothes were soaking) for a good 45 minutes, while I tried to cool off. Weylon thought it was funny that I was so mad and kept laughing. So he got stuck in the corner, so he decided it would be good to spit on the wall, instead of sit quietly. So he finally did get a good spank. And yes, I feel like the horrible mother now. Poor little Curtis said he would rather have his mom spank him though. (I wasn't gonna spank him, but thought the threat was effective.) And then he sat on the couch with big tears falling down his cheeks. So after Weylon decided it wasn't funny (after the spanking) he sat nice and quiet with Curtis. I know they are only 4 years old. I know they are little boys, but sheesh did that make me mad. I wish I didn't have such a temper and could laugh about it, but it was not funny at the time. We had a talk and hugged it out. The boys had to clean the play room and the living room before they could have lunch. Yes, and this was all before lunch today. Well, I do love my kids. I do love that I have the opportunity to be home with them, but sometimes I wonder if a full time job in the ER, or a prison would have been less stressful!

Friday, October 8, 2010

My Brothers!

I have been thinking a lot lately about all my brothers and what great men they are. I am so very blessed for the 4 brothers I have. I am sure growing up I was the biggest pain in their butts. I was the only girl, spoiled rotten and the only one with her own room. Which, let me add, I DIDN'T WANT! I would have so much rather shared it with someone! And before we made the piano room into the other bedroom, all 4 boys had to share the same room. I am sure that was completely unfair to the oldest, Kelly. But they had 2 sets of bunkbeds in that little room, and because I was scared to sleep alone, they had to take turns with me at night. HAHA. That actually was pretty funny. Ryan and I would always wait for mom and dad to go to bed and sneak out and get the crackers or bread. Or take the treats out of dad's lunchbox! OOPS! Even though we all had our moments and fought like brothers and sisters do, I love my brothers very much. They each are so different and add so much to our family.

Kel is the oldest and my favorite memory of him was when I was in probably like 5th grade. We had to ride the bus in cause we lived out of town. And there were some jerks on that bus. I remember some dumb kid Sean, he was so mean to me. And he was cussing at me one morning on the bus. Kelly told him to knock it off or he would make him. Well Sean was a wimp and shutup, but told his older brother that Kelly threatened him. So when we got off the bus, Sean and his stupid brother and friends jumped Kelly. I remember there was like 5 of them, and Kelly being a big, strong guy still beat off those punks. And in the process that Sean lost his glasses. I saw them fly off and he was trying to go at Kel, so I remember I took my little 5th grade self over to those glasses and stomped the heck out of those things. And man, did that feel good! HAHA The fight itself was not a good memory, but the fact that I have a wonderful older brother who protected me and got in a bad fight for me, has always meant a lot to me! Kel and I were at Snow College together too. That was fun because he was this big football star and I was this little dorky lost kid. Even though whenever I would be walking down the street, and he would have a car load of friends and they would honk and I WOULD WAVE, but they would wave the other way and I would feel like the biggest nerd ever, we had good times and I am glad I got to be there with him. Kelly lived in the dorms for a while, and he wouldn't let me walk into them alone or leave alone. He would hold onto my arm as we walked the halls, because it was the football dorms, and there was some questionable guys and conduct that would go on. That's the kind of guy he is. He was my protector. He would do anything for me. I guess that is why he was blessed with 4 girls and 1 son! He knows how to be a good dad to girls...and yes to Jack too!

There are a lot of memories I have of Chris too, but the one that stands out shows what an honest person he is. He was working for Bishop Bradshaw one summer, and had been hard at work all day. Well he was on his way home through the field, and found a water snake. And instead of just taking it home, he went back to Bishop's house and showed him the snake and asked him if he could have it, since he found it on their property. That has always shown to me what great integrity Chris has. I mean it was a snake. Like he would have cared if he took it, but since it was on his land he asked! Anther one is probably going to embarass him and Emily but its so hilarious to me! So when Chris and Em started dating, they thought they were so sneaky! HAHA. I admit, I am known that when I fall asleep, I AM KNOCKED OUT COLD. Usually things can't wake me up. Well they thought I was asleep one night, and were smooching, and whispering sweet nothings to each other. And I was so trapped! They thought I was asleep, and I WASN'T, yet I didn't want them to think I actually wanted to listen to them smooch! So I had to lay there, eventually I actually did fall asleep, but man, it took a lot of whispering and slobbery talking before I was out! Sorry Chris and Em, I had to say it! I always laugh about it! But I want you to know that I am so happy Chris chose my best friend since the 4th grade as my sister! What an awesome way to keep her in the family! Another good memory of Chris is when we lost the baby, he and Em also drove over here and cleaned up the house. Took care of the kids, lined up jobs for Ryan to get done. It was a blessing just to have them here and know how much they cared.

Tom, aka, Wooby. Tom was always serious! It was a good balance to have someone so serious in our family! The one thing that always stands out with Tom was his unwavering faith and example to the whole family! Tom was the one, no matter how crappy he felt, no matter how late it was, no matter what day it was, at night you would find him on his bed reading his scriptures and then on his knees praying. If you ever had one person in your life to look to as an example, it would be Tom. Even when he was so sick and the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with him, and he lost so much weight, and hair and hurt to get out of bed or walk or even chew food, you could always count on Tom and his unwavering faith in our Heavenly Father. He put all his trust into Him, and they did finally figure out what was wrong with him. They finally got him some medication and he started to regain his health. But even when he hurt so bad, you could always count on finding Tom reading his scriptures or on bended knee in prayer. For some horrible odd reason, every single Sunday after church we would all have this incredible craving for SODA POP!~ So never fail, after church someone did a maverik run. And I remember when Tom decided he wasn't going to be a part of that. He was probably only 13 or 14. We would gather up all the mugs and quarters (cause they were only $.25) and get the list of soda everyone wanted. Tom would say no thanks. I don't want you to buy me a soda on Sunday. Any other day he would have one, and it wasn't that he was trying to be better than anyone else. He wasn't trying to make us feel wrong, he was just Tom. He was obeying the commandment to keep the sabbath day holy. I do have a funny memory though. This was when he had a high school girlfriend. And we were all in the same group. We all did stuff together on Friday or Saturday night. Well one night, we decided to go to the haunted house. And we were all walking down the dark street, and LaDawn and I were talking and laughing. Well she and I were by each other and Tom was in front of us. He reaches back and thought he was holding her hand, and it was mine! We laughed so hard at him, and he was so stinking embarrassed, which made it even funnier! Tom would give his shirt off his back to someone if he knew it would help. He is a very giving person.

Ryan and I were the closest in age. We were also pretty close friends too. I remember when Ry was a freshman and I was a senior, he was running so fast to get to class and Emily and I were sitting in the hall! She stuck out her foot and he flew! I felt so bad, cause I saw this little guy fly, books fly and laughed. Then I realized it was my brother. We both felt so bad. Em didn't mean to trip him, and we didn't mean to embarrass him so bad on his first day in high school! We were also in Logan together for a while. I remember one night we all wanted to go to a movie. But Ryan was starving. So we stopped at Carl's JR. and he bought these 2 HUMONGOUS hamburgers. And he wanted to save them to eat during the movie. So we walk in and pay for our tickets, and he has these 2 HUGE beef patties in his armpits. His arms stuck out really far and he was like, "you think anyone notices my arms sticking out so far?' We laughed so hard, and kept trying to get him to squish his arms down, because if anyone out there remembers Carl's JR. they had some burgers that were the size of Texas. They were huge. And packed full of all kinds of stuff, so each bite dripped ooey gooey goodness. So there was someone on each side of him standing kind of close. But he made it in, burgers in tact, and thoroughly enjoyed those burgers during the movie! Ryan always rushes to everyone's side as soon as help is needed. Tom broke down on his way back from Minnesota from visiting Kelly. Ryan drove all night long, and picked them up and drove them all the way home. Then turned around and went home! We aren't talking a few hours of driving. We are talking over 20 hours of driving easily! When I lost our baby, he drove right over at night and stayed with the kids while we were in the hospital. When Chris was recently in the hospital, he drove down twice for him. The second time he took the wood splitter and cut all the wood Chris would need for the winter. That is the kind of brother Ryan is.

I have wonderful brothers. They each bring something different to the table. They each would do ANYTHING for any member of the family or anyone for that matter. They have each done so much for me. And even though I may not tell them often, I love each of them. I am so thankful for the guidance and love they each show me. I know that living with me was probably not easy. Having me as a sister, the N.E.R.D. as Kelly put it, the never ending retard distress, probably isn't easy! But they are always there for me. They are good brothers. They are good fathers. They are good husbands. They are good examples to me and I am so very grateful I have them as my brothers.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Cats out of the BAG!

Well I seem to be a bigger dingbat than I would like. So when I made a post on facebook that went something like this: Note to self (or anyone for that matter) NEVER watch the show Hoarders while eating breakfast! EVER! Especially if you suffer from morning sickness. But on the other hand, it could definitely be a good diet aid...But I didn't realize that I stuck on the whole morning sickness bit till 12 comments later! So yes, we are expecting...again! And we wanted to keep it quiet for a while because of last time. But, as my good friend Ruthie said, "if you didn't tell anyone, how are we supposed to pray for you and your baby?" So far everything is good with us! I got to hear the heartbeat at 8 weeks!!! That was such a relief. You have no idea how my heart was pounding out of my chest until I heard that sweet beat of my baby's heart. What a beautiful sound! My due date is May 3rd. But because I have to have a c-section, my doctor does that a week before, and our date will be April 26th!! Its nice that I can plan pretty on the dot for that part! We ARE NOT finding out what we are having this time! Thought it would be fun to be a surprise! Lets see how long the whole not knowing bit will last. I am one who likes to be prepared. So I don't know if I can really hold out on this information, but we are gonna give it a try! I go in next week for another ultrasound. They will be doing one every 4 weeks to make sure everything is going/growing/developing as it is supposed to. So that is our exciting news! Please if you think about it, pray that all will go well this time! I may be my doctors worst nightmare until this is over and I am holding my happy, HEALTHY sweet baby in my arms!

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Picure Day at School!

They love eachother!
They insisted on the horses!
I am anxious to see if he looked like this for the school pic too!
Such a girl!
Well we had picture day last week. I dont know if I will buy the school pictures or not. So I decided to take a few of the kids while they were looking so nice! I didnt get one of OakLeigh yet, she was actually still asleep! WOW! That rarely happens! So here goes!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

One year ago....

One year ago today, I was in the hospital in Gillette Wyoming. I had found out a few days before, on the 16th, that my little baby had died. So on the morning of the 19th, Brandon and I found ourselves at the hospital. I was to be induced to deliver our baby. It was a terrible time in our lives. A time I wish to never relive again. But after 2 days of being in labor, at 200 am, September 21st, 2009, I delivered a 9 oz 7 1/2 inch baby boy. The doctors didn't think I would be able to tell what the sex of the baby was, but I was farther along than previously thought, and my little Steven Alonzo Mitchell was perfect. I was thought to only be 17 weeks along, but he was so much more formed-I was at least 19 weeks. He was tiny, but he had 10 fingers and 10 toes. He had ears formed. His little eyelids were formed. He had a very distinct Mitchell nose. He had the distinct jaw line that Brandon and Weylon have. He was my son. He was perfect. I don't think a lot of people understand the sadness and pain I felt as a mother unless you have experienced the loss as I felt. When the nurses cleaned up his little body as best as they could and placed him in a blanket and in my arms, I loved him as much as I loved Savanna, Weylon and OakLeigh when they were placed in my arms. No matter what, I felt this little tiny guy kick and move. I heard his little heartbeat several times. I saw him moving in an ultrasound. He had his little legs crossed and was moving his hands back and forth. He had life. President Brigham Young said that once the mother feels life in her baby, then that means his spirit has entered into him. I believe that with all my heart. I also believe that one day, I will hold my angel in my arms. He is MY SON. And I love him. I know my Father in Heaven did not make me go through all this pain to not be with my Steven someday. I am so thankful that I was able to hold his little body and kiss him goodbye. Even though he may not have taken a breath on earth, he was my son. I love him as much as I love my other children. It hurts as much as it would any other way. But I know that the Lord's plan is perfect. I know that He is a just and merciful and loving Heavenly Father. I know I will be with my baby again. I accept my Father's will. I am thankful that I have MORE reason to try harder. I have MORE reason to give more. More reason to love more. More reason to try to live my life more Christ like. I hug my children a little closer. I have a different perspective on a lot of things in life. So I have my little angel to thank for that. Today, one year ago, I didn't know how I was going to get through this life. Now I know I have so much to look forward to. Even though it was the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life so far, I believe there was a reason. I believe that in the end, it will all be o.k. Life does go on. I love being a mother. I love being a wife. I love my family. I'm ok. I have felt my Savior's love. I feel my Heavenly Father's love. I have felt His arms wrapped around me. I have felt the promptings that my son is o.k. I have felt so many prayers of family and friends. I am so thankful that families are eternal.

Friday, September 17, 2010

School Begins!

I can't believe that my little baby girl is so grown up now! She does so well in school and is so SMART! I am so proud of her. She has a really good teacher this year (again) and I know she will go far in all she does! Thank goodness for the Rozet school. I love it. I am scared to death for after the 6th grade since this school only goes to 6th. I do NOT want the kids to go to Gillette. I dont want them to go to Moorcroft because I will have to drive them and I am scared to DEATH to let them drive on the interstate in the winter (once they are old enough to drive that is). I don't know what I will do. I literally sit up at night and fret about what we are going to do! I know it will all work out whatever it will be, I do have faith! It just scares me right now.

I am so excited for my little Weylon to go to preschool this year. I figured he better go cause next year when he hits kindergarten it will be pure HELL to have him go all day everyday! Preschool here is on tuesday and thursday all day! And he gets to ride the bus to school and home. Its a good introduction into next year! And I was so nervous I would get a phone call for him that he was melting down. But he didnt! He did great and LOVES it! His teacher Kathy Reynolds is the cutest, nicest lady and he LOVES her. That helps! I am proud of him for going. I know it was scary. But I know he will learn lots and do really well this year!

Its actually really nice on my Tuesdays here. Its just me and Oaks! We like our quiet time together. She misses her "YayYay" and "Sissy" but I think she likes just me and her on that day! The rest of the days I tend other kids. And thats nice cause it entertains Oaks and I get paid!

All in all I think we are up for a GREAT school year! I am proud of my kids and I love them so much!





Schools out! They are RUNNING home from the bus!
Waiting for the bus! I was so nervous for little Weymore's first day! Thank goodness for his big sissy!
Can't believe Savanna is 7 and in 2nd grade! Times goes WAY TOO FAST!
Weylon was so scared the night before he couldn't fall asleep. Then he was so EXCITED he waited outside for the bus for over 30 minutes!~
Can't you feel the LOVE between them!
Gotta stick a pic of OakLeigh on that day! She had fun watching for the school bus too!

Thursday, August 26, 2010

New Year Resolutions

Well unlike most normal people that make there new years resolutions on new years day...first of the year...I like to make mine when school starts. It seems more fresh to me than in the middle of the school year. I know sounds strange to most, but in my mind its right. Well anyways, since the kids start school soon I have been thinking a lot about what I would like to accomplish this year. And so decided I better put it to good use on my blog that way if anyone reads this you can try to hold me to it!~ (HAHA)

1. Family scripture reading every night. Even if its only a few verses. We did really good for a while, but have slacked again for some reason. So we need to get on the right track again.

2. Be more diligent in kneeling for my own personal prayers each night. I always say my prayers at night, but have somehow got into a terrible habit of saying them IN BED! I know I am not communicating well with my Father in Heaven when I say them in bed because I manage to fall asleep during each prayer. And therefore I dont listen to Him either, because I am off to dreamland. So from now on, my goal is to pray kneeling again.

3. Try to enjoy the little things. I get so caught up in trying to keep my home clean. Or trying to get caught up with laundry. I get frustrated (because it is a never ending process) and then get mad and take it out on my kids. I feel like life is passing right by and before I know it my babies wont be babies anymore. I dont want to miss anything. I want them to remember mom getting on the floor and playing with them. I want them to have good memories of their childhood, not of mom mad cause the house is a pigsty!~

4. NO MORE SODA! Seriously this one might actually kill me. But I read an article on Aspartame and the effects the "diet" soda can have on someones body. And it scared the dickens out of me. So I am going to try my VERY HARDEST to just avoid soda pop all together. It will be hard. I will probably go through a serious detox state. But I think it will be for the best in the end. (Sadly my mouth is watering just thinking about a diet dr pepper with vanilla). But I dont want to go back to non-diet either. I already have enough issues working against me trying to lose weight. I know regular soda would add so much more to the plate.

5. I want to have a better self image. I hate the way I feel about myself. And I dont ever want my kids to feel like they are too fat, or not too cute, or not good enough. And its not that anyone has ever told me these things. Its something deep within my soul that I need to work really hard on and figure out. I have great parents who always brought me up. I have a wonderful husband who always makes me feel good about myself. But for some reason Satan know my weaknesses and he works really hard on that one on me.

6. Work on baby books for OakLeigh and Weylon. They dont have one at all.

7. Do my elliptical atleast 4 x a week for 30 minutes at a time.

There will be more. But for now thats what I need to work on.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Kindness!

Well first of all I want to say that sometimes I get so grumpy and think that the whole world is going to pot! Sometimes my hope in humanity is so shotdown by the negative things in life, I forget that their is good everywhere! Well today my hope was restored! And for something so simple and small. Yet it meant the world to my kids and strangely to me as well! So I had a phone call from my endocrinologist today at 300 that she would like me to get to the Gillette hospital lab and get my blood work done asap, so that she can see what they need to up my synthroid dose to. Well I got there right at 545 pm (they close at 600). I had to bring my kids because Brandon had meetings at the church. So, I promised the kids that if they were EXTREMELY GOOD during my labs that on the way home they could eat at Wendy's for dinner. Well they were better than EXTREMELY GOOD! I was so proud of them. So I stopped at Wendy's on the way home. Thinking that ooh, thanks to my dear friend who sent me $20 for my birthday, we get yummy greasy food for dinner. HAHAHA.. Well we pulled to the drive threw and ordered. I dug through my purse and couldnt find the money. I only had $3.00. OH and the other day I lost my stupid debit card and had to cancel it and wait for a new one. Well the new one came today and I activated it. But when I handed it to the casheir it wasn't working yet. GRRR. Kids are starting to cry. I am starting to panic. So I said, "I am sorry. I only have $3.00. So please change my order to just 3 value french fries." And here comes the hope being restored part. A kind dear lady said here I got it. And just gave it to us FOR FREE!~ My kids were cheering. I am a highly emotional mess lately and got teary eyed. And thanked the lady profusely. She smiled and walked away. Seriously, she saved my hide. The ride home would NOT have been too enjoyable for me cause my children would have been crying. And starving. And I would have had to hurry and fix dinner at 730 at night! Which I was NOT looking forward to doing. So thank you kind lady. You restored my hope for humanity! I am seriously so thankful for the kindness and goodness in people. I hope to pay it forward!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

8 years ago,...




Well since my 8 year anniversary is coming up on August 22, I thought I would post something about that. Ever since I graduated high school, all I wanted was to get married and be a mom. I dated a few guys, 2 of them were not LDS. They helped me to realize what was important to me and what I wanted in my future. They were nice good people, but didnt share with me anything at all that was important to me. The gospel of Jesus Christ was (and is) so important to me. I am so thankful for my parents who made us get up and go to church every Sunday. Who had us sign up and go to seminary. I am thankful for that because later when I left home, it was a natural thing to get up and go to church every Sunday. Even when I had roommates who never went. Or when I lived with Aunt Jean and Karen and drove to the singles ward alone. I am so thankful that was instilled into my brain: go to church, go to church, go to church. It is what helped me later when I was dating the non-members. And I am not bashing them, they were good guys. We just had different ideas of what was important for our future. Well I went through Snow College. Graduated. Worked for a while. Went to Utah State University. Graduated. Moved to New Mexico and worked on the dairy as an AI technician. It was an amazing experience, I loved the work. I loved how it made me feel to be working with cattle and working hard. But I went back to a big empty house alone. It gave me a lot of time to think. And I wanted more for my life than to have a good job. I like noise and chaos. I like hearing kids laughing. I like being closer to my family. And I knew deep in my heart I was not where my Heavenly Father wanted me to be. I knew there was more for me than that. I think that is why I was so unhappy there in Willard. I was very unsettled. I couldn't grasp that that was home. It just wouldn't rest well for me and my heart was not at peace. So when I made the decision to move back to Utah or Wyoming, I felt this overwhelming rush of peace. It was a feeling I hadn't had for a very long time. My mind seemed to settle down. I was able to sleep and focus again. So Logan and Lexi came and helped me load up one night and we left. I went and stayed at the camper with dad in Farmington NM, where he was working and living till mom moved after the school year. Mom called me after a day of being there, and told me that the USDA had a job position in the Lyman newspaper. It would be working for the Farm Service Agency. I decided I should apply. I called and Terry faxed me the application and told me to hurry and fill it out and fax it back because the position was closing that day. I faxed her my resume and application a few hours later. She called me the next day and asked if I could be there for an interview the following Monday. So I drove the 10 hours home to Lyman. Went for my interview, and was offered the job. Things were falling into place for me. Even though I was living at home with mom, as a single woman in a very small town, that had really NO promising events for my future, other than the job, I felt very much at peace...for a while. But I had a lot of things to work out. I started to receive counsel from Bishop France. I went and talked to him once a week for a while to work through a few things. And I actually never talked with him about how much I wanted a family of my own. And one night he asked me if he could give me a priesthood blessing. Of course that was a good idea. So he did. And this is one blessing that I know for a fact that my Father in Heaven was speaking directly to me through the power of the priesthood. I was told that if I continued to get my life in order and get my priorities in line and prepare to go through the temple, I would find my eternal companion. And I was told a few other things that are just as important to help me along the way. But I decided then and there to prepare to get my endowments taken out. I set up a time to start taking temple prep classes. Went home feeling so good and happy. It was within a week of this happening in my life that I started to talk to Brandon. My friend Ben Broadbent gave us eachothers email addresses.We emailed for a couple days, then started talking on the phone. On the following Sunday Brandon was on his way back to Laramie from Salt Lake City. He called and said he was passing Lyman. Do you want to meet? I freaked out. I didnt think he would like someone like me. I knew he liked me over the phone, but in person was a whole new situation. But he drove to my house, met mom and I. We went to my friends house for dinner. He drove home. I knew from that meeting that I just met my other half. In fact, I went to NM with mom the following week, and was telling Chris and Em about him and that I would marry him someday. They both said, "uh huh. sure. You just met him." But I actually felt very much at ease. We started driving back and forth from Lyman to Laramie on weekends to get to know eachother. Within 5 months of meeting, we were married for all time and eternity in the Bountiful Utah temple on August 22, 2002. We have lived through a severe financial hard time. We have lived through several jobs and moves. We have lived through (and continue) some bad health issues. We have lived through the loss of our angel baby Steven. But We have 3 beautiful children here on earth with us. We have a nice home. We have a good stable job now. We live in a wonderful little town with an amazing little branch of people. Through everything we have been through together, we have remained strong and true to each other. I know that I was supposed to move to Lyman so that I could meet Brandon. I know that we have been watched over. I know that we did the right thing by being sealed together in the temple. I love Brandon. He is a good man. He is a good father. He is a good husband. He lives his life full of integrity. He is a person who has struggled through a lot of pain and trials. Trials that have only made him a better man. Trials that the Lord placed in his path to show him a better way. Trials that have shown him how to appreciate the good in everything. Trials that have made him be a better father and husband. I know that Brandon suffers through a lot of pain due to his bad hip and leg. But he is not one that will complain through it. There are days that he is down and cant get out of bed, but he still manages to try to make us happy and laugh. I am so thankful that my Heavenly Father had a plan for me to find my soul mate here on earth. I am so thankful that no matter how chubby I am, how frazzled I may look, I have a husband that tells me every day he loves me. Tells me everyday that he thinks I am beautiful. Brandon, I love you. I am so thankful for you. I know we have gone through some hard times, but we have made it through. You are my strength when I want to give up. I am so glad we can carry each others burdens and help each other along the way. You have made my life better. You make me want to live better. I love you!