Picure Day at School!

They love eachother!
They insisted on the horses!
I am anxious to see if he looked like this for the school pic too!
Such a girl!
Well we had picture day last week. I dont know if I will buy the school pictures or not. So I decided to take a few of the kids while they were looking so nice! I didnt get one of OakLeigh yet, she was actually still asleep! WOW! That rarely happens! So here goes!

One year ago....

One year ago today, I was in the hospital in Gillette Wyoming. I had found out a few days before, on the 16th, that my little baby had died. So on the morning of the 19th, Brandon and I found ourselves at the hospital. I was to be induced to deliver our baby. It was a terrible time in our lives. A time I wish to never relive again. But after 2 days of being in labor, at 200 am, September 21st, 2009, I delivered a 9 oz 7 1/2 inch baby boy. The doctors didn't think I would be able to tell what the sex of the baby was, but I was farther along than previously thought, and my little Steven Alonzo Mitchell was perfect. I was thought to only be 17 weeks along, but he was so much more formed-I was at least 19 weeks. He was tiny, but he had 10 fingers and 10 toes. He had ears formed. His little eyelids were formed. He had a very distinct Mitchell nose. He had the distinct jaw line that Brandon and Weylon have. He was my son. He was perfect. I don't think a lot of people understand the sadness and pain I felt as a mother unless you have experienced the loss as I felt. When the nurses cleaned up his little body as best as they could and placed him in a blanket and in my arms, I loved him as much as I loved Savanna, Weylon and OakLeigh when they were placed in my arms. No matter what, I felt this little tiny guy kick and move. I heard his little heartbeat several times. I saw him moving in an ultrasound. He had his little legs crossed and was moving his hands back and forth. He had life. President Brigham Young said that once the mother feels life in her baby, then that means his spirit has entered into him. I believe that with all my heart. I also believe that one day, I will hold my angel in my arms. He is MY SON. And I love him. I know my Father in Heaven did not make me go through all this pain to not be with my Steven someday. I am so thankful that I was able to hold his little body and kiss him goodbye. Even though he may not have taken a breath on earth, he was my son. I love him as much as I love my other children. It hurts as much as it would any other way. But I know that the Lord's plan is perfect. I know that He is a just and merciful and loving Heavenly Father. I know I will be with my baby again. I accept my Father's will. I am thankful that I have MORE reason to try harder. I have MORE reason to give more. More reason to love more. More reason to try to live my life more Christ like. I hug my children a little closer. I have a different perspective on a lot of things in life. So I have my little angel to thank for that. Today, one year ago, I didn't know how I was going to get through this life. Now I know I have so much to look forward to. Even though it was the hardest thing I have ever had to face in my life so far, I believe there was a reason. I believe that in the end, it will all be o.k. Life does go on. I love being a mother. I love being a wife. I love my family. I'm ok. I have felt my Savior's love. I feel my Heavenly Father's love. I have felt His arms wrapped around me. I have felt the promptings that my son is o.k. I have felt so many prayers of family and friends. I am so thankful that families are eternal.

School Begins!

I can't believe that my little baby girl is so grown up now! She does so well in school and is so SMART! I am so proud of her. She has a really good teacher this year (again) and I know she will go far in all she does! Thank goodness for the Rozet school. I love it. I am scared to death for after the 6th grade since this school only goes to 6th. I do NOT want the kids to go to Gillette. I dont want them to go to Moorcroft because I will have to drive them and I am scared to DEATH to let them drive on the interstate in the winter (once they are old enough to drive that is). I don't know what I will do. I literally sit up at night and fret about what we are going to do! I know it will all work out whatever it will be, I do have faith! It just scares me right now.

I am so excited for my little Weylon to go to preschool this year. I figured he better go cause next year when he hits kindergarten it will be pure HELL to have him go all day everyday! Preschool here is on tuesday and thursday all day! And he gets to ride the bus to school and home. Its a good introduction into next year! And I was so nervous I would get a phone call for him that he was melting down. But he didnt! He did great and LOVES it! His teacher Kathy Reynolds is the cutest, nicest lady and he LOVES her. That helps! I am proud of him for going. I know it was scary. But I know he will learn lots and do really well this year!

Its actually really nice on my Tuesdays here. Its just me and Oaks! We like our quiet time together. She misses her "YayYay" and "Sissy" but I think she likes just me and her on that day! The rest of the days I tend other kids. And thats nice cause it entertains Oaks and I get paid!

All in all I think we are up for a GREAT school year! I am proud of my kids and I love them so much!





Schools out! They are RUNNING home from the bus!
Waiting for the bus! I was so nervous for little Weymore's first day! Thank goodness for his big sissy!
Can't believe Savanna is 7 and in 2nd grade! Times goes WAY TOO FAST!
Weylon was so scared the night before he couldn't fall asleep. Then he was so EXCITED he waited outside for the bus for over 30 minutes!~
Can't you feel the LOVE between them!
Gotta stick a pic of OakLeigh on that day! She had fun watching for the school bus too!